Haha alright weird dream. So the first half was about Ivy and I. So we were at a diner right..and there was a black guy that was at a table and he invited us over because he told us that every person that goes to the diner must listen to one of the scary stories that he tells. So Ivy and I go over to his booth. He starts the story off and as hes telling the story he is showing us scary as pictures of people from hecka long ago. So I was hecka not tryna listen to the black guy just cause I cant deal with scary stories. So as I was kinda ignoring him, Ivy and I spotted this ghost at the corner of our table. AND so we hecka screamed and told the black guy to stop and then I woke up. Haha
Second half.
I got out of gymnastics practice and saw that you (archiell) were in the courtyard. So you were like, LETS GO NOW! And i was like uhh okay so you gave me a ride home. And we had our usual talk in the car and half way through the convo I screamed, ‘MY CAR!’ Haha so you had to take me back to shcool cause I left my car in the paking lot. LOL thats something that could hecka happen too.
Anyways. Today was weird cause I was tryna remember my dream so much so I could tell you. So I was forcing myself to repeat my dream over and over so I could remember. Okay so I visited Casey today just cause I hadnt visited him in awhile, and hes only like 5 blocks from my house now, so hey might as well.It was kinda awkward not gon lie. But whatever, I had to settle some stuff out with him, so it feels good to talk serious with him. Um as I was driving away i looked in my rearview mirror and saw a black cat and was like OH HECK NO! But i dont believe in stuff like that, but just the thought makes me ugh. So when I got to school i was hecka debating whether or not to park in parking lot just cause my dream. So i was like fuck it, and I got all day parking. WHOOT! And so I went to practice right. And Tammy saw my lanyard and was like omg youre going to skyline? And i was like yah and all of sudden she decides to tell me a scary story!
So the story of the woman and her baby on skyline drive…..
A woman and her baby got into a car accident on a foggy night.
Thats it! Hahahaha I was dying when she told me that! And she told me that if you drive on skyline drive at night you can see the ghost and her baby. LOL Pretty funny. Lets try ARCH!
I need people to stay off my back. Stop the questioning, stop the assuming, stop the talking, just stop. I’m honestly really tired of having people approach me and ask my questions about certain stuff and topics that do not need to be discussed. I don’t even get a proper hello from people anymore, instead they come with a list of q’s. Like really though, I’m gonna tell you whats going on if you just let ME tell you, don’t force it out of me. I don’t wanna be rude but seriously people just need to shut up. i’ve talked so much and heard so much already, enough is enough, let me do my own thing. RESPECT goes a long way.
Fuck being mad.
Fuck being pissed.
Fuck being angry.
Fuck being furious.
Fuck being irritated.
Fuck being all that and the rest of the million synonyms for it.
Most of all,
Fuck the people that make you like that.
Can you believe that tumblr.com isn’t blocked at school? Hmm thats hella interesting to me. Yeah I have nothing to do right now and I was writing stuff down in a notebook and I was thinking Hmmm does tumblr work at school and I tried and here I am writing about how bored I am. So todays 4-5 is an hour long, I’m dying in the library.
Okay so lately I’ve been feeling this weird emptyness inside of me. Like I could be doing something or hanging out with people and I feel like something is missing. I find myself just looking around not knowing what I’m looking for. Sometimes I just go to my locker, open it, stare inside of it and feel like what I’m missing will be in there, but its not. Yeah iono whats going on. I could actually feel the emptyness inside of me too. Its all over my stomach and heart. Its like I’ve ate air and the space has taken up inside my body.
I don’t remember what day it was, but I remember what I thought of that day. I was thinking from that day forward that I should live everyday like it is my last day.No fighting, no bickering, no nothing but joy and happiness as if it were the last day. I know i’ve said that I’m the most pesimistic person, but I guess I’m changing and I am now being optimistic about everything. Cause I’ve really learned that positive things happen to positive people, and negavtive things happen to negative people. So live up!
Falling deeper and deeper into a hole that I can’t seem to get out of. The walls around me just seem to get thicker and thicker as each day passes me by. It gathers of my stress and constant worries. Easily it builds up and causes more tension around me. As I look up, the clouds seem much farther away from when they were as I started off on level ground. The shade around me becomes bigger and colder and the warmth I once had quickly begins to fade away, leaving me shivering. I’ve dug myself so deep into this hole that no matter how high I jump or how much I try to get out, its too deep. As a first and natural instinct, I panic and worry and try to jump out thinking that my solution would be easy. Not thinking, I start to kick and scream and do silly things, hoping and thinking my problems would disappear. Not a hand in sight to reach down and pull me up. I need to learn on my own, only I could truly understand how I am feeling. Slowly and slowly I start to kick down the chunks of dirt that are in my way. I learn to work around my problems by having them be a stepping stone to me instead of massive problem standing in my way. Somethings are best left off alone, some need to be fixed to my advantage. Getting out isnt going to be clean. On my way up I reach under, over, to the sides and way above me. Confronting my problems I work my way up. It isn’t easy when some problems are bigger than others. Plenty of them gang up on me, pushing me down, such as the way gravity does. I fall, I’m dirty after facing problems that have caused me pain and damage. Yet I don’t quit, I don’t fail, I simply start over. Only this time I approach things differently. With patience, I don’t rush solving my issues. I approach one at a time. Making sure that everything will be okay with one, I continue with the other. With time and patience I shall be able to reach the top.
FAMILY OVER EVERYONE.
I would chose family over anyone, anyday, anytime, over anything. Family isnt just my mother, brother, father, aunts, cousins, uncles, or grandparents. It’s also my close and best friends. You already know who you are.
I stay on tumblr for straight hours doing nothing.
Maybe not nothing, but I hella stay tryna make a post but I get distracted easily so I never finish it and when I try to finish it, its not the same because my thoughts were interrupted, so I just stop.
I even got interrupted while making this post! Someone keeps texting! Haha
Mmmmmm night!
Bacon Guacamole Burgers are so good.
Senioritis is no joke. I’ve been staring at my computer for the last 5 hours and I still havent finished my homework. It’s only two assignments too! I can start it off but for some reason I can’t continue, I always get distracted. I either change the song on my Itunes or I’m fixing pictures on my computer. Or I’m IM-ing Ronzo and all we seem to talk about it Ms.Lo’s bullshit hwk that none of us started and don’t want to start. SO we wait around for the chinese kids to finish it so they could send it to us and we could re-word it. And once we’ve recieved the hwk we’re to lazy to even copy it OMG! AH Ronzo was like fuck copying it right now, so he went to watch the warriors game on tv, and now I’m tumbling. Haha okay after this blog I’m out to do that freaking HWK!
He’s just not that into you- best movie ever, with some of the best people ever. Good stuff, if only it could come true huh Jessie? But then again the did have hella drama and up’s and down’s that make you say OMG.
The number one thing I love about rain. Whenever it rains I feel like everything is being washed away. All my problems, my worries, my stress my everything thats bad just flows away. All the negative energy in the air just comes down with the rain and goes away. And by the time you realize that it has stopped raining, the sun comes out, the clouds depart and the birds are chirping as they shower in the ponds of rain. It’s like its a new begining, a fresh and clean start, and maybe a little bit wet. rain, wash away my worries.
